the blooming diaries. volume 1. | learning to nourish my body, soul, and mind

*trigger warning: i do discuss eating disorders and mental illness a bit in this post

hello, friends! i hope you’re all doing well on this gorgeous spring day ❤ i’m not sure if any of you remember, but a while ago, i started something called the blooming project. shockingly, that little project has morphed into a mindset for me. everyday, i try to focus on blooming. and it’s been very therapeutic. i’ve learned so much about myself in the last few months, and i’ve become more and more like the person i want to become. 

because blooming is a continual process, though, i figured i’d start a new blog series about my blooming journey. i’ll be keeping you all updated on the little changes i’m making in my life. i hope this is a bit of an inspiration for you to start your own blooming journey (:


the last month or so, i’ve been making various decisions that have been changing, and improving, my lifestyle. some are small, such as attempting to lower my screen time (recently i’ve been failing at this, but it’s okay. there’s always tomorrow to try again). others are fairly significant, such as cutting out some of my friends who have been toxic for my faith. and some have been incredibly difficult, such as finally choosing to try to recover from my eating disorder (it’s still in the early stages, so i’m hoping my “diy recovery” will work). 

i’ve been attempting to be more gentle with myself, and have been paying attention to what my body and mind are telling me. i chose to not go to sleepaway camp this year, due to my mental health. i chose to be okay with sleeping in later, because of how bad my insomnia has gotten. i’ve unsubscribed to youtubers who i don’t want in my mind. i’ve made the decision to get a puppy, and to train it to eventually be my phyciatric service dog (currently the puppy is unborn :p but i’ll keep you all updated on it once it’s born). i’ve made the choice to take a test next year, that if i pass, would allow me to graduate high school at 16, and move on to other things i’m passionate about. i’ve been writing more of my novel (we’re at 22k words!). i’ve been doing more art, because i’ve found it to be therapeutic. 

something i’ve been reminding myself of lately, is that a caterpillar does not become a butterfly overnight. similarly, i’m not going to achieve my dream self overnight. it’s a continual process. despite what tiktok may lead you to believe, it’s not an overnight process to become “that girl”. also being “that girl” just isn’t the end goal for me. being someone who is gentle and loves the lord and takes care of herself is my end goal. 

a question that i’m working on asking myself daily is the question of “what today can i do to nourish my body? what can i do to nourish my soul? what can i do to nourish my mind?” ways i nourish my body are eating enough food (ie: not denying my body what it needs), doing skincare, and doing gentle workouts that don’t push my body too far. ways i nourish my soul are doing bible time, listening to worship music, and spending time with the lord. and ways i nourish my mind are doing art, watching studio ghibli films (ryan elizabeth and mya got me into them), and other forms of self care.

overall, i’m far from perfect. my self care methods are far from perfect. but i’m learning. i’m learning to become more like the person i want to be. 13 year old rue would admire me. 11 year old rue would admire me. and i just know that 70 year old rue is proud of me.


how have you been blooming lately? how are you all genuinely doing? let me know in the comments ❤

/ ad gloriam dei /

How To Bloom Where You’re Planted | Musings About Self Improvement & Finding Contentment In Imperfection

Hello, dears! I hope you’re all doing well on this wonderful Saturday. It’s the day before Easter, and I can’t help but smile. I’m listening to a lovely worship playlist, and I’m feeling better then I have in a few days. I had a really horrific autistic meltdown a few days ago, and it’s taken me a while to recover from it, but I think I’m finally mostly over it. How are you all doing? Let me know in the comments below ❤

I’ve been seeing quite a few blog posts and YouTube videos about improving your life, and those definitely inspired this blog post. However, I’m going to be doing a different sort of spin on those posts. Instead of telling you a bunch of (unachievable) ways to change your life, I’m going to be giving you a list of ways to gently enjoy life this Spring. 

10 Ways To Make Life Just A Little More Wonderful This Spring

(Please note that you do not need to do any of these to achieve a fulfilling life. Life is what you make of it, and I understand that these ideas may not work for everyone. I’m just giving the things that have made life a little bit better)

  1. Look for blessings in everything

Life can be pretty rotten, can’t it? And sometimes it can drag us down so much that we just feel like we’re drowning and there’s no way to find joy in anything. Trust me, I get it. I’ve been going through a particularly difficult depressive patch recently. And yet, despite that, there’s still little pinpricks of light. You just have to look for them. Did you know that in prison, Paul found excuses to sing? And dance? And be joyful? You too can find joy, no matter your circumstances. Maybe you’ll have to look a little harder, but there is joy. I can promise you that. Something I’d recommend is writing down the days blessings at the end of the day. It really changes your perspective ❤

  1. Do some gentle stretching/yoga outside

Look out your window. It’s so incredibly gorgeous outside. Doesn’t putting a blanket on the ground in your backyard, and doing some gentle stretching/yoga sound just lovely? Need I say more? You can get in a workout, while enjoying that crisp Spring air. Just a few friendly reminders, be sure to put on sunscreen beforehand, and don’t push yourself too hard. Your body is a temple to God, and as important moving it is, pushing it too hard isn’t what the Lord wants for you. Take care of yourself, and pay attention to your boundaries, okay? 

  1. Plant a garden

Ahh I’ve been slowly preparing a garden the last few weeks, and it has been such a therapeutic experience. You see, my dad built a garden a few years ago. Then he let it get overgrown. And now I’m uprooting the weeds and taking over the garden hehe. I…I highly recommend starting a garden. Even if you’re living in a tiny apartment, you can start one. Just use some yogurt cups as pots, and plant some indoor plants. See? Simple and thrifty.

  1. Spend time in God’s word, soaking it up and hiding it in your heart

I have to admit, I’ve been struggling to motivate myself to read His word lately. But that’s beside the point. One thing I’ve noticed is that when I spend time in God’s word, I feel energized and joyful. There’s something so incredible and refreshing about reading the bible. I promise you, it’s not a waste of time. My moments spent reading my bible are moments well spent, and moments that I adore. They’re some of the best moments of my day (:

  1. Listen to more worship music, and listen to less secular music

Let’s be honest. How does secular music make you feel? Probably, if you’re like me, angsty and angry. And somehow that feeling feels good. There’s a sort of high that comes with Olivia Rodrigo music. But…is it healthy? It’s not. The bible tells us to think on what’s true, right, and lovely. Does most secular music help you to think on that? I know how difficult detoxing from secular music can be, but I also know how rewarding it can be. Christian music isn’t always the easiest choice, but I’ve found that it’s the music that leaves me feeling the most uplifted and edified. 

  1. Read some lovely books

Jane Austen novels make me feel british and feminine. Enough said XD. Okay but in all seriousness, there are so many wonderful books that are perfect for Springtime, that will leave you feeling happy and almost like a pixie. Some books I would recommend include Little Women, by Louisa May Alcott; All Along You Were Blooming, by Morgan Harper Nicholes; The Main Street series, by Ann M Martin; and Stargirl, by Jerry Spinelli. 

  1. Try out a new creative hobby

Recently, I’ve been spending a lot of time doing watercolors, and friends, they’re so therapeutic. There’s something so satisfying about mixing water…and colors…and making a masterpiece. I’m still a beginner, and I mostly paint flowers, but it’s still so fun. Obviously, you don’t have to do watercolors. Maybe try knitting, sewing, drawing, poetry, writing, making flower crowns, bullet journaling, or blogging. Any of these hobbies will be exceedingly rewarding and fun. (:

  1. Romantisize every aspect of your life

I see so much stuff everyday about how to romantisize your life, and I know it seems so cheesy, but it actually works. A week ago, I sat in my backyard, listening to a Jane Austen soundtrack, and reading an Anne Of Green Gables novel. I felt like a magical cottage fairy, and it was so incredible. But that’s off topic. What I mean by romantisizing your life, is listening to lilting harp music when doing school, putting self care first, and finding ways to make life more then just existing. Maybe I’ll do a blog post about this soon. We’ll see.

  1. Go thrifting 

I love thrifting so much. Lately, I’ve been thrifting through ThredUp. It’s affordable, high quality, and sustainable. I’ve found so many cute vintage finds through ThredUp, and I’m always so satisfied with my purchases. 

  1. Find contentment in where God has planted you, and dare to bloom there

Lately, something I’ve been having a hard time with finding contentment. I keep telling myself that “once I buy this skirt” “once I buy these pens” “once I do this” then I’ll finally be happy. And every single time, I’m left disappointed. Because these things can’t satisfy me. They just leave me longing for more. And I just find myself more and more discontent. I want to live somewhere more vintage and Cottagecore. I want a boyfriend. I want to be prettier. And quite frankly, this isn’t healthy. And it’s certainly not what God wants for me. He placed me here, with a purpose and a plan for why I’m here. And something I’ve been learning, is that He’s all that can satisfy me. The world can’t satisfy. It says it can. But it can’t. Only Jesus can satisfy. Because of Him, I’m slowly learning how to bloom where I’m planted. He put me here for a reason. And I’m willing to embrace that reason.


I hope you all have a wonderful day after reading this post! *Hugs* What are some of your prayer requests? Let me know in the comments below (:

/ Ad Gloriam Dei /

my april 2022 bullet journal spreads / feat. an attempt at being less of a perfectionist

*not sponsored

hello, friends! it’s been a while, hasn’t it? i’ve been super busy with school, writing, and my mental health, and haven’t had much motivation for blogging as a result. however, hopefully now that things are calming down a bit, i’ll be blogging more regularly.

when i first started bullet journaling in april 2020, it was fun and easy, and was honestly just a creative outlet. but recently, it’s become less of a hobby, and more of a perfectionistic attempt and being pinterest-y and aesthetic. and it was reaching a point where it was no fun and was honestly kinda a chore. which is why, yesterday, i challenged myself to set up my april bullet journal spreads with minimal online help, and with just my own original doodle ideas. 

i will admit that it was…difficult, to say the least. i kept feeling like it wasn’t “pretty enough” or “aesthetic enough” or “perfect enough”, and i really wanted to start over and make a perfect april bullet journal. but, i kept pushing through. and i’m so glad i did, because as a result of pushing through, i got some wonderful spreads that were unique and special. there’s a certain kind of peace that i found in being less of a perfectionist. 

the spreads

opening page

i love this spread so much. the aesthetics are very spring-y and happy and vintage, and it just makes me so happy to look at. i was worried i had drawn too many flowers, but i honestly think they work really well.

to be read 

this page was inspired by abigail’s cup of tea’s to be read page in this video. i really like how it turned out, and i like how it has He is risen on it, as a little reminder that Christ is risen (in honor of easter).

habits

i don’t entirely like how this looks. the circles are too shaky, and my handwriting is…not it’s best. but, since i’m working on accepting and embracing my bullet journal imperfections, i guess i have to be happy with it. or at least, i have to not be hateful towards this page (especially since i spent…a lot of time on it).

content

this page is mostly just for planning out blog posts and youtube videos (i’m planning to release a yt channel at some point next month). i guess it turned out alright? it could be better, but it also could be worse.

prayer

this is just a page where i’m going to put prayer requests throughout the month, so that when i’m flipping through my bullet journal, i can remember to pray for certain things.

you are loved dutch door quote

fun fact about this, on the other side, there’s a gratitude page dutch door. sadly, i did the gratitude page upside down *facepalm*, so i’m only showing this dutch door haha.

quotes & memories

i guess i like how these turned out. i mean…the “quotes” looks more like “puotes”, but it’s ok. one of these days i’ll learn how to do a cursive q, right?

pens i used for these spreads

i actually kept the pens that i used pretty minimal! i only used a micron 01, micron 005, tombow 772 duel brush pen, and 2 crayola supertips.

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thank you so much for reading this post! i hope you all enjoyed it <3. if you had fun reading this post, please don’t forget to click like, subscribe, and leave a comment. i hope you all have a wonderful day, and remember to keep your eyes on Jesus. *hugs* see you all soon (:

do you bullet journal? if so, what theme did you choose for your april bullet journal spreads? let me know in the comments!

/ ad gloriam dei /

Introducing The Blooming Project

Ahhh this project is something I am super excited for. Basically ack how do I even begin to explain this? Okay so. This project was inspired by Morgan Harper Nicholes’s book, All Along You Were Blooming and it was also inspired by the whole toxic glow up culture. So often, I see girls pinning glow up stuff on pinterest. and a lot of it is very diet culture-y and ‘instant fixes’ and honestly it’s not very healthy. It’s harmful for your mental health, and quite frankly some of the ideas are straight up dangerous. But also, what else are you supposed to do? You want to improve your life and achieve a better healthier lifestyle. 

This is where the blooming project comes in.

Instead of focusing on a harsh glow up that will be hard to stick to and might even be dangerous, we’re focusing on a gentle ‘blooming’ that will slowly change your life and be a lot easier to stick to. It’s actually backed up by science (yay!!), so you know these methods work. The best part is, if you guys enjoy this challenge, I might try doing mini blooming challenges every couple of months.

Here’s how the blooming project is gonna work. For the next 2 months (I know, I know, that’s a long time…but that’s how long this project takes), you’re all gonna be following a customizable schedule that you put together for yourself, modeled after my personal schedule. I’ll even be doing this schedule alongside you all! 

Just a quick remember, don’t let this project affect your health in any way. Modify the schedule as needed, and don’t push yourself too hard. Your health is far more important *hugs*. Love you all ❤

How To Do The Blooming Project

  1. The first (and, in my opinion, most important step) is to pray before beginning this project. Find out what God wants for you, and keep Him at the center of this project. The goal is not to be the skinniest or prettiest or best. The goal is to learn how to live this incredible life that we have been given to the fullest. 
  2. Evaluate your life in these 5 categories: Spiritual (your relationship with God, how you’re doing religeon-wise), Mental (how your mental health is), Physical (how your body is), Intellectual (all academia related activities), and Lifestyle (how you live life). Rate yourself in each category, and make a list of how you can improve each category (basically make a glow up list…look up glow ups on Pinterest if you need some ideas).
  3. Set at least 3 overall goals for this project. They can be anything from ‘bake a cookie cake’ to ‘write a 50k word novel’. I know that my personal goals are gonna be to write a 60k word novel, get fully prepared to start my Etsy shop, read 2 classic novels, get in shape, and get more involved in Ydubs. Make sure your goals follow the SMART goals outline, or else the chance of you succeeding at them is…very slim (sorry to burst your bubble).
  4. Make a step by step outline for how to achieve those goals.
  5. Make a copy of this document, and put up to 3 assignments in each category, per week. You can see my personal plan for myself here.
  6. Now the fun part! Sitting back and enjoying the rest of this week, because when next week comes, you’re gonna start blooming, and your current lifestyle is gonna go away completely 😂 
  7. While you’re waiting, you can make a vision board for this project!

I hope that this has been a helpful guide! I can’t wait for you all to begin blooming alongside me *hugs*. You guys can do this, and I am so proud of you all for taking this big first step! Don’t forget to click like and follow me for similar content. ❤

What are some ways you’re hoping to bloom in the next two months? Are there any questions you have for me, on the topic of blooming? Let me know in the comments! (:

/ Ad Gloriam Dei /

A Little Sprinkling of Inspiration To Brighten Your Day 

Hello, friends! I hope you’re all having a wonderful day, and if you’re not, that today brightens up a bit for you <3. Today, I’m not going to be rambling in this post or anything, I’m just going to be showing some quotes that have really encouraged me. Lately, I’ve been struggling with deciding what to post on my blog. I keep wanting to post controversial angry posts, that will likely lose me quite a few followers. I keep wanting to use this blog as a venting space. And that’s not healthy. That doesn’t show Jesus’s love. There are already plenty of people out there, screaming the exact things that I want to say. There are less people posting gentle little reminders to love Jesus in your every day. And so, today? Today I’m simply posting some quotes that have really encouraged me, in hopes of encouraging you. These quotes aren’t mine, rather they’re from Pinterest, but maybe Jesus will use them to bring hope to someone out there, who has stumbled across my blog. Friends, I hope that these little quotes will bring you hope today, and remind you of God’s love for you ❤

Also, this is random, but I just got a Pinterest account and uhm I thought I’d really quickly promote myself. So, go follow meeee.

The Quotes

*Note that all of these are from Pinterest. None of them are mine. All credit goes to the original creator. If you own any of these images and want me to take them down, please feel free to contact me or let me know in the comments. This post was inspired by Mariam from Infinitely A Daydreamer’s weekly inspiration posts (:

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Thank you ever so much for reading this post, I dearly hope that you found some little things that brought you some peace today. If you enjoyed this post, please don’t forget to like, subscribe, and leave a comment down below. I love you all, and Jesus loves you all.

/ Ad Gloriam Dei /